Day 1 Morning SOP

Felt so good after waking up early and complete my SOP todae.  During the last 1/3 GYFM, tension/pressure are continous felt at my third eye and crown chakra.  After SOp, a big clensing of my stomach although i had a last shot b4 i sleep….. c”,)

‘Wo Mei Shi ‘ not to worry!

2010

It’s a new year since i last blog. Quite a surprising year 2009. Become a ‘Ling Xiu Ze’ and also able to ‘turn’ vegetarian(not 100% la) not expecting it in a way, just like when i signed on to be a regular in SAF.  ‘Shi Shi Wu Jue Dui’ nothing is definite even though how u feel / like / love now. It can change over time so lets not be too obsessed in especially in ‘Qi Qin Liu Yu’.  Experience temptations and laziness in my path of cultivation which i’m still trying to improve.  Realization sometimes come late for me like when driving the act of preventing overtaking or dislike of others for not showing signals, wait till the TV program ended then do SOP……

Lately, start to do ‘Gong Xiang’ and ‘Ru Xiang Zan’ at home.  Lost to Temptation lately too as my SOP was cut short to only ‘Gong Tian’, PJHS and GYFM.

Question for MR: If an altar uses electrical incenses, lights… Is there a need to do ‘Gong Xiang’ and ‘Ru Xiang Zan’?  Can use visualisation rite?

Heart Chakra

Yesterday during the initial part of ‘zhao qin’ for the ‘LZDMZ’, where we need to visualise ‘guan ying’ entering into our heart, could feel a strong urge of ‘Bei’ n compassion.  Just needed another level more n would explore into tears before the start of the chanting….. well, eventually it did happen during MR guidance in opening of our heart chakra session.

 

 

Friday

A week ba has passed since i last did my ‘jing zhou’ at home.

Did SOP aka ‘gong tian’, PJHS, ‘jing zhou’ at home and could feel static all ard my body, feeling veri active; different from wat i experienced when doing SOP in camp (should not be different – be it where i do my SOP.)   My conclusion is that my relaxation / 定 not enough.  Next, was in a state of emptiness and finally could feel someone(not sure who) is swirling his/her finger near to my crown chakra which ignite my crown chakra to be more active whereby i could feel a rush of energy entering my body.  After enjoying the energy, ended my SOP.

 

 

 

Tues n Wed

Tuesday nite, not much feel to share.

Wed nite, can feel a ball of heat roaming/inside my head/face.  Could feel some chill when gushes of wind flew past me.  Then was in a blank state till the end of the ‘ing zuo’.

 

26/10/09

Couldnt get up early in the morning as planned。。。。。 to do my SOP.  Not a morning person yet。

Initially, felt that i was giving heat ard my body then slowly, i could feel chill on my left side of my body.  It’s like my left side of my body is defrosting then my right side of my body, heat is coming in from my right side.  One side Chill, One side Heaty.

Initally hoped/wishes that the heat can overcome the chill n wins tis battle but…… relax DONT THINK SO MUCH n JUMP INTO ANY CONCLUSION

Just let it be…..   c”,)

色不異空 空不異色

色即是空 空即是色

受、想、行、識，亦復如是

Noon Session

Todae did my ‘jing zuo’ in the afternoon instead of the usual late nitz.

Third eye chakra was getting constant pressure, other than tat not much feel or sighting.  But towards the end of my ‘jing zuo’, heard some music/melody from left ear.  This my first time hearing these sound.  The music lasted for maybe a minute plus the most.  Initially the music was quite clear and slowly towards the end, the volume also keeps dimming down and then finally comes to an end.

Sick

Feeling uneasy after monday class, thinking it is due to indigestion as i ate too much in class just now, i tried to preform the chakra opening rite after my ‘jing zuo’, but couldn’t concentrate for more than 1 minute and gave up…… Then apply tiger balm on my tummy thinking tat my stomach upset will go away when i woke up in the morning.  Tried to vomit but counln’t.  Who knows, i woke up at ard 3am plus still not feeling rite… twist n turn till morning n finally drag myself up to work. Did a ‘hai yan shui’ dry shower before going to work.  Still not feeling well, veri tired, veri sleepy.  Went to see a doc during lunchtime and was diagnose as having Gut Virus.  Got 2 days of MC.

Upon reaching home, slept till 1130pm woke up and force myself to ‘jing zuo’.  manage only 30mins of ‘jing zuo’ n went to sleep again….. woke up again at ard 3am due to diarrhea and at the same time, hear someone was vomiting outside the basin.  Later then i realize it’s my father who was vomiting….  Slept through the whole morning till afternoon.  Its Wednesday now.  Then from my grandmother, i then know that everyone in the house except her is SICK.  My father, mother, uncle, sister and me are all sick at the same time and are having either diarrhea, nausea, body ache or fever….. Its not food poisoning yet still get sick the same time?????

Intention

Having the intention to do anything u want is totally different in just doing in.  The result with an intention and carried out my plan of doing my ‘jing zuo’ immediately taking shower after reaching home is different as to wat i normally would do: Slowly drag my time or till i feel comfortable doing or no more tv show to watch….. then do my SOP/ ‘Xiu Xing’.  My mindset before the start of doing anything plays an impt role in the process which i think i finally came to realize and hope that i can carry on this mentality as the days goes by.  Preparing myself mentally and physically is way much more better than pushing myself to do.  Argh Argh Argh must be focus and have this mindset each and every time and everyday….

Todae ‘jing zuo’, first time experienced heat from my back where the kidneys are to my neck and did the chakra exercise.  During the rotation in the solar plexus, can slightly feel my  stomach/intestine having some movement and at the base chakra, some form of cold/negative energy is being disperse.  Whole body feels the rejuvenating of the white light at the end… wow first time did so long(1h45min).  Seriously, thats why after todae ‘jing zuo’, i realize that this ‘Intention’ is veri veri IMPT n POWERFUL and shifu repeatedly said in the past….. Think i finally ‘ling wu’ le.

静坐

After almost a week of 静坐, i realise i will be in a state of nothing during the midst of 静坐.  Nothing is felt in that period of time.  When the ‘Feel’ is recovered,  my 静坐 is then end abt 5 -10 mins late.

Now able to slowly relax and cool down my thoughts and to maintain in a better posture.  c”,)